Interesting Feeling

This year has been a real change. I never really asked for change it just happened. Its a different type of change. Last year i wasnt living my life, this year i cant get enough of it. I learned to value my environment and help as many people as i can. Most people live their entire lives doing something they dont like. I made a decision that i would never do that. I know i will go through hardtime and that is expected. Since i can remember i was always focused on getting rich, getting money, having a nice car and a nice house Etc, But then from talking to people throughout the years seeking answers, i found out that it doesnt really matter. Some of the people i have met are wealthy, i always ask them the same question "how does it feel"

Their answers are always strange to me, dont really make much sense. They always say something like "well, it has its ups and downs"

Then my next question is " Do you love what you do"
Their answer is usually something like,"not really, but the money is good."

I mean, i agree with them. Thats good for them you know, but are they really living?
It seems to me that somtimes people get caught up in the so called life that society has placed on them. They find a job and end up turning 50 at that job. Is that living?

Not too sure, but for me i do know that i want to do as many things in my life as possible. We are only going to be sure of this life because we are in it right now. So i try to make every single day the best day of my life. I pick what i want to do and then i do it.

So back to the whole money thing. So now, i dont care too much for it. I see how it infects everyone around me like a rattle snakes poison infects its food. Not me, i wont be infected. I will rather live without those luxuries than to be a slave to my own life. I will be free, free from negative thoughts and negative feelings.

So back to the change. Well, this year i my birthday hit on 080808. I sorta took that as a sign that something special would happen this year. I imposed it upon myself. I made it real.

So i fell back into dancing and is has def been a blessing. I was a chain smoker since i was 18. I quit that cold turkey and never looked back.
I lost 14 pounds and am planning on running my first marathon by oct.
I eat extremely healthy now and by healthy, something that i never thought i could do. Imagine your mothers home cooked meals..Well, i dont eat them anymore. Its a sacrafice i am making. It sucks sometimes because i go there and it smells SO GOOD. I Grab a little here and there, but nothing much.
I feel great, having a whole new outlook on life and what it should feel like is amazing. I try and share with as many people as i can, to maybe inspire and motivate them into finding what makes them happy and doing it everyday.
On top of that, i am writing my first book. Something i always thought about but never had the courage or patience to do. It isnt nearly done or anything like that, but its a start. I hope to write words that can inspire everyone around me. Hopefully help some of them get through the hard tmes in their lives. I think i can help and i believe is a responsibility we all have. To help eachother, yet we dont because we get caught up in life.
Albert Einsten Says."A human begins to live when he can live outside Himself."

Those words mean a lot to me, they keep me going, they fuel my being. Everytime i say them they have a different meaning yet similar.

Well, i will try and write something here next week. I am planning on running from my house to fair oaks mall. A good 13 miles on tuesday. So, we shall see if i can do it. I ran from my house to centreville yesterday. that was pretty hard. Its a competition with self.

Bless

Antonio